When I started this blog last April I had every intention of recording things as they happened and yet suddenly its March 2012. Nearly a year on and I haven't added a single post! I have written - scribbled down thoughts, started to type the stories, worked on poems - but it's only now I find myself back here.
So what does nearly a year of experiences look like? Well I made the big move and quit my job last summer. I spent 3 months contracting part time, got involved in some fundraising for a local charity, spent some quality time with family, found some new dance classes, took more photos, had horse riding lessons, rode a bike by the sea, and then just after Christmas I jumped on a plane to Australia for a 2 month adventure.
I gave up my routines and habits. Tried to wipe the canvas clean and take a fresh look at how I really wanted to spend my time. It's been eye opening to see how clear things can become when you truly stop, sit back, look and most importantly listen to yourself. It sounds so simple when I put it like that, but I know only too well how difficult it can be. The noise of your life can get in the way and that feeling of clarity can feel a million miles away.
But here I am, back home, gearing up for the biggest leap yet and that hazy doubt of the past has cleared. In September I'll be going to university to take the first step towards a completely new career path. A huge change and a huge commitment. There are nerves and there's fear of the unknown but it's wrapped in excitement about the uncertainty, anticipation of the possibilities and a desire to experience every second. The fast forward reflex has gone and I'm ready to live and love each day again. To enjoy what I'm doing in that moment, with a plan in mind, but with the focus on the here and now.
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